This is a quote from Pilgrimage of a Soul: Contemplative Spirituality for the Active Life by Phileena Heuertz (Intervarsity Press, 2010).
Transformation, which essentially involves healing, is a slow process. It is rarely full and complete in an instant. It takes time. And during that time, it demands cycles of awakening, longing, darkness, and yes, even death. All are crucial to this most sacred work in us. Being healed of that which shackled me and prevented me from being fully me took time and space for solitude, silence, and stillness. You might enter a sabbatical expecting a kind of convalescence, but it wound up being more like rehab for me – lots of stumbling and frustration and even anguish. This is how we feel when we emerge from our cocoon as we begin to live into our true self – the person loved for whom he is alone and not for what he can do or be for others. During seasons of transformation, we have to find our footing and let our wings harden so we can make the flight of our life. An intentional Sabbath season made it possible for me to enter my chrysalis and submit to a metamorphosis of my soul.
I have this quote pasted into my journal and wanted to share it with you. It reminds me that doing soul work takes time, patience, self-empathy, and just allowing a process to unfold. That’s what I often forget; that I can’t make things happen quicker than they are maybe meant to. What I have learned is that you can ask for what you want, accept that it is available to you and then (while still going through the process of whatever is going on in your life and being Open to It), wait for it to manifest…..and have the courage to accept it when it does!